JoyLazaro

Thursday, December 30, 2004
A Year Ender part 1

I'll be writing a two day journal for my year ender blogging. I started blogging last August 2004 but it was on a different website. Anyhow, i enjoy doing this though I know no one is reading my blogsite. What a year it has been, it might have been very fast, way too fast coz everything's so routinary though changes are really normal but it may not be very evident.

The 1st half..

I was sick most of the time coz I was on night shift for 5 months. I was waiting for the time that I can be on morning shift. Last year I spend my Christmas eve here at the office, call me loser yes I was! I was crying while talking to one of my clients, if they only knew how sad and terrible I felt they wouldnt act in such a crazy way. I spend the new year with a new everything, new life, new love, but not a new job, I was hoping but not. I attempt to call my past life, he didnt speak coz he it was his natal day, though I forgot all about it.We spend the Valentines day for the 1st time with my 2nd hunnie. It was sweet coz he bought me a bouquet of flowers, which he doesnt do anymore for some unknown reasons. Although some of it I kept even if the petals are dry as the land where it came from. March came, no summer outing attended. We had a three-day vacation in Baguio last April. My nephew celebrated his bday last April 21., it was a simple 2nd year for him, we went for a swimming and it was fun. On May, I was transferred to morning shift joined wheng's team. I was nervous at that time coz I dont know anyone besides my batchmate in the morning shift, friends strike me like a bow but a sad event came, my friend Melody Arcuna died because of an accident while she was the crossing the street at Edsa on her way home.It made really gloomy to have lost her, to have lost a friend is losing a part of your memory, all I can say, thanks for the wonderful memories Girl.On the 3rd of June, I celebrated my 24 years as Joy Lazaro. My life may not be as relevant to others, but I have fought and succeeded. I may have fall but I have stood where my knees broke down. I have been a fighter for this year, I am self relentless, moreover I survived.

The 1st 6 months was too quick perhaps I got used on my everyday life. Thank God I am now a normal person coz I was included in one of the slots in the morning shift. I've gained friends though I dont exhaust too much time to go out on gimmicks. Probably I grow tired of it..Coz this year its just a matter of having peace with myself and people who surrounds me. My life has become routinary though not quite coz I was discovering more about myself and I become stronger in terms of dealing with a situtation. I have been hurt alot of times eversince my childhood days up to the 1st time I fell inlove. Right now, this year pain comes as a part of me. Trials may be as hard as swimming an ocean but for me there's always an island nearby. I have lost someone special to me, physically and emotionally, my friend will always have a special place in my heart. I have lost someone a year ago, but it was because of somebody else. My friend Melody will have a special place and had left a void that I could never imagine who could ever replace her , she has a company that's so warm but I had let her go and she is always within my memory, kept within the rooms of my heart...I had too much to tell for the 1st half of this year and thiis blog artcile wont be enough for the 1st half...Though this year nothing relevant happened. Probably the 1st half is vague as to what my mind can remember. I will always have a way to remember..Thanks 1st half of 2004 and even for the past years you made me what I am now enjoying the last 2 days of the year...

joylazaro wrote his/her thoughts @ 01:12 pm
Wednesday, December 29, 2004
Today's shift

I woke up at 515, my shift starts at 5..So in other words, I was late....I woke up took a bath for only 5 mins. Then rode the taxi for work and it costs 200 pesos, though it was worth it, coz the trip was 25 mins. So I have to leave work at 3 pm today.

Relevance of this: make sure that your cellphone alarm has full charge coz if not you'll end up like me..So much about thinking I have a body clock...Whoaahhhh!!!

Anyway: malapit na magbagong taon, bagong buhay, bago lahat..Pero sna magaw ko na resolution ko na lagi kong napapko every year. tumigil na sa bisyo kong di maganda, kun ano man un lam un ng mga taong nakakakilala skin...

joylazaro wrote his/her thoughts @ 11:51 am
Tuesday, December 28, 2004
Gone for the weekend

Ayan nakapagpasko na ko smin. Sarap ng pakiramdam...
Gabi ng dec.24..ngsimba,kumain,ngbukas bg gifts,uminom,nalasing,natulog
dec.25..gumising,nanood ng tv,natulog,inom na ulit
dec.26..pumunta ng EK,3 rides lng nsakyan ko..ang dme ng tao..possible because its a sunday and tomorrow's a holiday...kasama ko cuz,sis,relatives and of course hunnie
dec 27..tulog hnggang 12pm, then went to TIMOG at 6.
we had KTV with my high school friends..Saya saya..received gifts from them
dec.28 & jan.1 denied ang leave ko..grrrrr!!!!!
still receiving gifts...

joylazaro wrote his/her thoughts @ 05:18 am
Friday, December 24, 2004
Pasko Na!!!!!!!!!

Ngaun,makapilipino muna tema ko, ewan ko ba sa kadahilanan ata ayoko ng maniwala sa mga Amerikano, tutal di nman nila ito naiitindihan..Mejo inaantok pako ngaun habang nandito sa opisina. Nagpapalakpakan ang mga tao sa tuwa kagabi, natapos na ang 9 na gabing pagpupuyat ngnit napakasrap ng pakirmadam ko kc mas npalapit ulit ako kei Lord..Hayy,dko na mkikita un mga paborito kong karakter sa simbahan. Mga bagong mukha na tga smin, mga kaservice ko dati ngaun na ngsisilakihan na..Mga kapitbahay nmin na nglalaro lng sa kalsada noon, ngaun ngbibinta't ngdadalaga na. Pinakapaborito kong parte ng pagsisimba ay un pgkain ng puto-bumbong..Ewan pero ang alam ko magpapasko na...

Ngaun napalaitan ko nman ang layout ng aking Blog, mejo umayos, mejo gumanda..Pero ewan ko cguro papalitan ko ulit kc masyadong maliit.

Hayy 30 porsyento kikitain ko sa pagpasok ngaun, kapalit nito ay 3 araw na wala munang sakit ng ulo. Ang aking kabatchmate d2 sa trabaho pagkaraan ng 2 taon mhigt ay tuluyan ng aalis dito sa trabaho naming walang kasiguraduhan..Pero malki ang aking utang na loob dito, kundi dahil sa trabaho kong ito, dko mabibili ang mga gusto ko at baka ako'y isang taong walang abilidad at walang kaalaman.

Ang alam ko lng mgpapasko na kinabukasan. Sbi nga ng pari ang pasko daw ay para pagyamanin inde lamang ang materyal na aspeto ng buhay kundi pate ang spiritwal na bahagi nito.Sa wakas ngaung taon nrrmadaman ko na ako'y tao muli..Di na ako zombie nglalakad na panay trabaho nlang iniisip. Sana man lng meron kaming bakasyon na 2 lingoo tulad ng normal na empleyado..Sana lng..Napapagod din ako..Ngunit ganun tlga ang buhay..

Pero tama na nag drama sa lahat ng aking, kaibigan, kapamilya,kapuso at lahat ng Pilipino sa buong mundo..Maligayang Pasko sa inyong lahat!!!!!!!


joylazaro wrote his/her thoughts @ 10:07 am
Thursday, December 23, 2004
Christmas is just around the corner..

Its the 23rd of December. I was on sick leave yesterday coz my back hurts. I have lot of plans to think of this Christmas. I will have a 3 day restdays from Christmas up to the 27th. I have lots of things in mind. What I am real excited i..today would be the last day for the 9 day novena mass of Misa deGallo. And this would be the first time I will be able to complete it. I just wanted to ask the Lord God for good health and better lives for all Filipino people (sounds so serious ayt?). Anyhow I have given some of my gifts to my friends and co-workers,received gifts as well from Mumai and Janey. I am so happy making people happy as they make me happy too. Its Christmas eve tomorrow. I have done the shopping for the Christmas eve meal. I bought a HAMONADO which I consider cheap coz the branded one coz around 400 pesos..Whoa!!!..I hope before this year ends I can buy myself a new bed...

Just to add more. Rhyss whose now 2 years old always go with us during Misa de Gallo, he makes  tantrums on the church smile to people and gained alot of admirable fans because of his wonderful smile...Anyhow,sleepless night will be son be over. But I found out that Ill be reporting to work on Jan1 next year. So much for happiness...Anyhow...we'll see..My shift ends at an hour or so. Monday, my friends from high school would have a dinner hope I could join them...

joylazaro wrote his/her thoughts @ 12:38 pm
Tuesday, December 21, 2004
Gift giving

I have received a gift from one of my good friends here in the office. She was kind enough to look for a gift for me. I would definitely open the gift on Christmas eve placed it together with the the other gifts under our Christmas tree. People are all now busy thinking of the best to give, whats the most suitable present especially for their special someone. I have already completed my gift shopping almost 2 weeks ago. I was really anticipating this year's Christmas coz this would be my 1st time smelling the cool breeze of Christmas morning...But the real esence of gift giving I believe is to understand the importance why Christmas only comes in every year and why it gives the people a warm feeling although the weather is cold than normal...Why it feels so sad not having your loved one around you during this season and why people smiles alot and even forgives those pople who sinned them and they even ask for forgiveness...Probably the real essence of Gift giving doenst come from material things though its really relevant its where you feel that the gift will make the person happy and really feel remembered....That's what I felt evrytime people remembers me..Thanks Mitzie..You're the 1st friend who remembered me in such a special way...But to top it all, thank you Lord Jesus for all the true friends I have left in this world...That's the best gift I had so far..Friendship.....

Merry Christmas everyone!!!!

joylazaro wrote his/her thoughts @ 11:36 am
Monday, December 20, 2004
A Denied leave

I applied for a one day leave and found out this week that it was denied. I cant understand but I have been sick for about a week now. But I always think these things and how my metrics would be if I dont go to work.But there's always this question inside my head, do they want people to rest? We are never given any leave even Christmas leave,I think we pay you good is a good sentence. Nevertheless I dont want to elaborate things. I was having a fever and found out I got an infection. Yet I still have to go to work, by hook or by crook...When will I see the end of the line for all of this?

Mom offered a car or a vacation..You could either spend the vacation here or buy a car (2nd hand lng gus2 nya kuripot c mama)..Do you know what I choose VACATION....probably next year three weeks would be fine...I badly needed one right now.
Nowadays, I havent had the time to have a social life because Im, always tired seems my body is too weak for a night day out. I am so bummm!!!!

joylazaro wrote his/her thoughts @ 08:39 am
Friday, December 17, 2004
Starting over

I have enjoyed watching starting over at the ETC channel. It's a reality show that helps to woman to start over and work on some of their attitude problems. The thing is..its not scripted and I could normally relate to one of the characters. I always make it to a point that I reach home before 5pm.
I have really enjoyed watching them though I found out that what the cable shows is very much outdated..Probably 4-5 months late..Try this site to read it over http://www.startingover.tv/meet/index.html

joylazaro wrote his/her thoughts @ 11:03 am
Thursday, December 16, 2004
Misa de Gallo

Misa de Gallo starts today, but to some who needs to work at an early time, I have attended the 9pm high mass. I was with my sister and my nephew last night. The priest's homily said that the 9 days for the Simbang gabi is commemorating the 9 months that the Blessed Virgin Mary conceived our Lord Jesus Christ. The Misa de Gallo has been a tradiion to our family eversince I was small kid. What I really like about the Simbang gabi is the cool breeze in the morning, the warmth in the smile of the people who goes to church, the very knowlegable homily by the priests, and puto bumbong,bibingka, the lights and the parols on the street. Well that I was all in the past coz, I have to go leave for work at 330 am and just reminisced those times, although the simbang gabi will always be a way of praying and asking for forgiveness and most likely for the Lord's compassion for our fellow countrymen.

My college friend texted me at 1 am. I had 4 hrs of sleep. He was someone special or he used to be...He informed me that the barkada wont have our yearly Christmas party because my friends who had a 7 year relationship already broke up. Well thats how life goes...I will be texting Pia later to say hi.

I have already placed my gifts for everyone under our Christmas tree. I am so excited for this years Xmas, I would be celebrating Xmas just like any othe human being does, not as an operator or an answeing machine. I have a teammate who swap his sked with me for saturday dec 25. That includes dec 24 as well.. It would be my first time again after 2 yrs. I am planning to go to EK on christmas with some of my high school friends and of course my hunnie..Anyhow, to everyone..Happy Holidays!!!

joylazaro wrote his/her thoughts @ 06:43 am
Wednesday, December 15, 2004
back pains

Right now I am suffering from a pain at the back. I know Its really strange. I always have fever in the evening. Sometimes it scares me alot. But i'll be getting a checkup on saturday. The doctor says I need to have my urinalysis or else we wont be able to find out whats wrong with me. This scares me alot. I have to care of myself, if only mom was here, she may know what's wrong with me. I need to be strong for myself, him and my family. I get so scared of the fact I am feeling pain. I cant work this way....I know God will ease the pain. I have become too dependednt on drugs and medication.

joylazaro wrote his/her thoughts @ 08:03 am
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