I have been trying to get into the site for my daily blogs but as you can see, my mind's not clear. I have been busy for a few weeks because I had been completing my documents and now my hubby submitted it yesterday to the British embassy. The process for application is far easier now than it is before when I applied for my tourist visa. The lady in the front desk told him that he needs to wait 15 days and if we don't hear from them it's better to get in touch. I don't know but 15 days? is it really that fast? But to top all of that, we always argue all about things over the phone, he seems so weak at times and he tends to lose the grip when he doesnt understand what I am saying. I, as well, lose my patience over telling him the same things over and over again..so we clashed...I will never forget what he told me "Pasensya na, mahina utak ng asawa mo" duh...i said, what's that suppose to mean..sometimes I doubt him, sometimes I am so wanting him to learn, yet he acts like a kid without any efforts because he thinks I am there to do things for him..sometimes I believe that he is the man of my dreams..yet, these are the times that I wanted to be with him, there are times I feel that I wanted to left alone and just turn back time so I can have a bit more. Do I deserve to have less and become what I am now. I don't want to feel this emotions..it is not good..my hubby deserves the best. But I think I deserve more..I wanted to cry, yesterday I was happy and excited...I don't exactly know why?????

Suddenly it came into me..a question..Do you really love me?? And he was upset...why are you asking me this question..Is it something you wanted to tell me..no..I am not doing anything bad..I just wanted to know...but he was mad and put the phone down..without him answering the questions I wanted him to answer with sweetness and assurance that I am as lucky as any other girl could be..Why do I compare? Why do I feel? I am really pissed off, yet so sad I wanted to just tell him to do things and I hope he make some efforts...

Happy Valentine's day to all couples...